Where you lead me... I will follow.

Fall Retreat was this past weekend.

It was very hard for me.

Not in the conviction sense...

In the sense that I already know that I've been called to being a missionary, and the whole weekend was about being open to what God wants for your life.

I mean... Maybe He really doesn't want me overseas?

I'd be okay with that.

And really... I feel like there is no way that I could go on a project this summer.

But maybe God wants me to?

Either way, I'm going to fill out an application...

Maybe God wants me to go with a completely different organization?

Cool. Bring them to me.

Maybe God wants me in Ypsi,

Maybe God wants me in Esky.

Maybe God wants me to work at I&A.

Maybe God wants me to fight for a well paying job.

Maybe God's plan is that I don't get a job at all this summer.

Yeah, whatever His plan is... It will be hard at some parts, but I know that I don't know anything He does about my life, and that I can only see such a minimal part of what He desires for me.

So yeah, I mean, it convicted me in that, no... I'm not trying for every opportunity and just letting God close the doors... but I was never against that in the first place.

Maybe I'm just jaded.